Cat and Mouse

Burning eyes and dripping nose
Running by on tippy-toes
Ticking seconds in my head
Till I slip and snap again
Spiking panic, ice-cold dread
Will this nightmare ever end?

My mind is racing, too fast to stand
Red-hot venom blazing in my hands
Wish I could split this deadly brain
till only skin and bone remained
Think too much and learn too little
No time to comprehend
All I know is this emptiness
I lost my only friend
Scratch, sweep, moving feet
I lose myself in the mindless dance
But night is a blink, and morning too soon
Another day, another missed chance

How long will you shackle me in your suffocating grasp?
Will my lungs endure until dawn?
Will I ever learn to run, to breathe, to know the truth
before my time is gone?
Can I erase you,
but say thank you?
Can I kiss my demons farewell?
My greatest love holds my greatest chain
A warm embrace from the fires of hell
One breath, one thought, one moment more
Repeat
Bite tongue, close eyes, no time for war
Retreat

I have resigned from my throne
and let the regent take hold
But soon I will rise from the ash
and reclaim my crown of gold
For now, I play cat and mouse
and wait, and work, and pray
that my tired body and hazy mind
will last for one more day

Published by madforskating

Confessions of a crazy skating fangirl. Your local Pair Skating Yoda. Sometimes I write about other stuff. • 17 • Asian-American • bi • she/her

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